Had another disturbing binge dream last night. The reason behind the dream (I believe) is that I am not over 10 months abstinent & I just spent money I don't have booking a flight to visit my sponsor in Canada to celebrate my year anniversary. So in my dream I was before the fridge & cupboard eating a definite binge food and planning on eating a lot more. I was thinking, "is there any way this can be a slip and not a break in abstinence?" And the answer was NO! This is a definate break (as I pooled the pudding out of a pastry with my fingers). God! I so want my year and I had no binge feelings but I guess this is my disease trying to get at me via fear. I feel better just having shared this dream.