Being abstinent & working the 12 step program gives me integrity. My informal definition of integrity is: doing what I said I was going to do, and not doing what I said I wasn't going to do. But I decided to look up the definition of integrity in the dictionary to see if I was operating within the same framework. 1. Rigid adherence to a code of behavior; probity. I didn't like that definition so much. As an addict I am very naturally an all or nothing, black or white thinker. That kind of rigidity can be dangerous for me. If I think like that, and I make a mistake, then I might as well throw in the towell & give up because I screwed up. Hmmmmmmm, definition 2 might be better. The state of being unimpaired; soudness. Now that is what I am looking for. As an addict I need to be off ALL of my drugs so that I can be sane and clear headed. If I am using any drug I am impaired. Let's check out the 3rd definition. Completeness, unity, purity. That is what I hope to get out of working the 12 step program. Unity of my emotion, mind, body & spirit. Purity of spirit & completeness and wholeness within my life. Working the steps gives me integrity.

This is a reply from yet another loop....in response to alcoholics not having to drink everyday.
Point of fact.......alcoholics do need to drink everyday in order to live. Alcoholics in recovery choose not to drink alcohol. Food addicts need to eat everyday. Food addicts in recovery choose not to eat addictive binge & trigger foods or engage in addictive behaviors. Compulsive overeaters need to eat everyday, but those in recovery choose to weigh & measure and/or commit their food portions to their sponsor. Some drug addicts need to take drugs everyday of their lives too, but choose not to take narcotics unless prescribed by a doctor.
There is a lack of recovery in OA compared to other 12 steps programs in existence (as I see it). I believe part of the reason (and the danger) is that people don't take their addiction to food seriously enough and that they try to make food a "special" addiction and "different" than other addictions. Addicts are addicts are addicts. The program is the same no matter which program you are in. I believe once you start thinking food is a "different" addiction you are asking for trouble. Doesn't it follow then that you will need a "different" program. The truth as I see it is that you do have to be more vigilant with food than with alcohol....because alcohol is more obvious in it's forms (there are exceptions) and with lack of proper & misleading labeling of food in this country you have to be very careful with what you eat as addictive substances are unknowingly put in your food. But that doesn't make food a harder addiction so much as it makes us better at recovering. We HAVE to be vigilant and we HAVE to take more responsibility for what we put in our mouths if we are to stay recovered (and get recovered). But the addiction process is the same. The recovery process is the same. Put your drug down, get a sponsor, work the steps. No different than any other addict. Hard, yes. Lots of people float in & out of AA. Some are not there because they want to recover but because the state forces them to be there (or their job, families) and sometimes they decide they want to recover & stay, and sometimes they go back out. In OA nobody is forcing you to be there against your will via threat of jail. So there is that difference. Yes, society is not as understanding of food addicts as alcoholics. But that is today. Alcoholics had a rough road to haul when they brought their addiction to the forefront of American consciousness. Now it is our time to bring the true nature of food addiction to this country's consciousness. That is our responsibility....we addicts have to do this. The best way we can help is to recover ourselves. Then we have recovery experience, strength & hope to share. If I seem hard-core it is because I am a hard-core addict...no excuses. So in my recovery I have no excuses. I am responsible for the food I put in my mouth. Lots of reasons contribute to my being an addict but I place no blame as I am always the responsible party when it comes "using" my addictive substances. I am not at fault for being an addict....but I am the only one responsible for putting addictive substances in my body. That is my point of power. If I am responsible for something....then I can change it. My HP gives me the strength to do it....but I do the footwork, no-one else. I am not special or different, neither is my addiction. What works for AA's will work for me. That is a blessing, not a curse.
Of course this is all my opinion.....take what you like and leave the rest.
Multiply addicted and by the strength of my Higher Power recovering,
Amy

When I focus on my recovery I lose the weight
When I focus on my weight I lose my recovery!

This is another loop response:
I am sending this to the loop because I believe their are probably a lot of people with these questions. This is just my opinion of course....take what you like & leave the rest.
This is where the 12 step program comes into action. You can't take away your addictive substance....and leave a huge hole in your life. You need to fill that hole with something else. For me it was an enormous hole. Eating, planning to eat, obsessive thinking took up huge amounts of my time & energy. I believe you need to put at least that much time & effort into your recovery as you did into your addiction.
I can write a list of a hundred things to do rather than eat. Some are passive....some are active, to fit any mood & situation. If you WANT to stay abstinent you will have a plan to succeed....if you don't have a plan, you are planning to fail. If you don't want to be abstinent, no list will help you. The excuses to use are just too easy & numerous when you want to use. There is a big difference in my opinion between wanting to be abstinent & sticking to a diet (to lose/gain weight). The big difference is that abstinence gives you something to do with your time. Meetings, phoning, talking to your sponsor, doing stepwork....etc. A diet is just a list of things you can eat. A food plan differs in that it is a freedom plan, it defines what will keep you free of the obsession & what won't.
I know it's unfathomable to you right now....but I can help you with your feelings. FEEL THEM! Don't run from. I spent a lifetime running from them...it is one of the reasons I used addictive substances, to escape feelings, especially anxiety. Trust me, feeling your feelings will NOT kill you. They are just feelings, they pass, they fade. Feelings are not facts & they don't have to be acted on. Learning to feel them & learning to deal with them constructively and in healthy ways is one of the main benefits of working the 12 step program. It's what makes OA different than a diet club. Here are a few program acronyms. Before program I lived in F.E.A.R. Fear everything and run. After program I Face Everything And Recover.
I also would prefer to not eat sometimes rather than risk a binge. I don't though....because that black & white thinking is part of the disease (which is trying to kill you by the way.) Starving yourself (not feeding your body the way a normal person does) is just the other side of the food addiction coin. Overeating, undereating...same disease, different face. I keep myself from both faces of the disease via my food plan. My food plan (which I committed to my sponsor) states I don't eat over a certain amount of food at a meal or daily, & it also stipulates I don't eat under a certain amount. This is freedom for me because I don't have to think about it or worry & stress over whether I should or shouldn't eat. I look at my plan...what does it say? Don't go more than X amount of hours without food. Don't eat more than X. Don't eat less than X. The freedom of not having to worry about what I need to do.
I don't allow myself to use excuses like "I don't know what to eat" or "I don't have anything abstinent to eat". I have set meals I can fall back on anytime, no thought involved. If I worry what am I going to eat or find myself searching the fridge & cupboards I stop myself....have the XYZ meal, you know that's abstinent. I make meals & freeze them just in case. I always make sure I have abstinent food in the house. It is part of my plan...I plan to succeed so I don't fail. My disease will look for any excuse, I try to cut it off at the pass. Perhaps planning your meals the night before & committing them to your sponsor will be necessary.
The meeting is a place where you can share your thoughts, feelings, & experiences. One shouldn't comment on another persons share at meetings. The time for "interaction" is before & after meetings. The meeting is a safe place to share where you know no-one will comment on words or actions. This is a safe place that doesn't exist for a lot of us in the real world. Even positive comments & feedback can have a negative effect on us. I don't know how many times I would give myself permission to binge when someone would compliment me on my weight loss. That was all my disease needed to convince me I could eat again now....I had succeeded! Thanking someone for sharing is to acknowledge them for their share. Not commenting on the share positively or negatively is a gift of freedom for us all so we feel we can share what we need to in a meeting.
I am a gutter coe, but still, not everything I put in my mouth is a time bomb. There are certain foods I have never binged on. The act of eating is a trigger for me but that is why I have specified amounts on my food plan. If I can't eat a food without triggering the "time bomb", than that is not a food I can eat safely. Therefore it goes on my binge or trigger list that I enacted in step one. I don't eat time bombs anymore. Alcoholics drink everyday, but they don't drink alcohol. Compulsive overeaters need to eat everyday too, but they don't eat their binge & trigger foods if they want to stay sane, useful, happy, and free from the obsession.
The place to look for answers is in the program. Go to the meetings and LISTEN. Get a sponsor & program buddies/friends to interact with when you aren't in a meeting. Keep reading the loop mail & when you graduate join other loops. Go to f2f meetings if they have them in your area & write down everybody's phone number. Call them when you want to interact. Read lots of OA literature. There is soooooooooo much to do to help yourself get better. You've made a BIG start! Sending these questions to the loop was a brave step and I bet your disease is NOT happy with you right now. In fact it is probably incensed that you dared asked for help. It is probably trying to convince you that you don't need anybody's help! Recognize that voice now because it is your disease trying to get you. Keep coming back and don't leave until the miracle of freedom from compulsive overeating happens for you!
P.S. (I bet food isn't the ONLY thing that makes you feel good. Your disease just wants you to think that. It's a trap. If nothing else makes you feel good why bother trying to live differently? Don't believe your disease...it's a liar!)
A few things to do other than coe.
-go for a walk
-take a bath
-brush your teeth
-calls a program friend or someone on the buddy list to make a new one
-write a letter
-watch TV/movie
-play a computer game
-brush your dog
-write a gratitude list
-read an engrossing book (not a cookbook!)
-read OA literature
-write an email on your loop
-clean your room/house
-call/write your sponsor
-do some step work
-pray
-do something nice for someone & don't let them find out who did it
-play solitaire
I bet you can add another 50 things to this list! Good luck on your recovery journey!
Love,
Amy

This is another loop response....hope it makes sense out of context.
When I used to give in to cravings it didn't feel like the supreme
sacrifice. It felt like salvation.
When I was coe I was so into the disease that black was white & up was
down. I didn't see that I was giving up health, happiness, & sanity for a
piece of ********. Instead I thought I was having a small piece of heaven
on a plate. I could not be convinced otherwise.
I truly feel I was given a miracle when I got abstinent. Getting off my
binge foods once & for all gave me clarity I had not had for 30 years. It
was as if I lived in some bizzarro world & this thin bizzarro film had
covered my eyes. Everyone else saw & lived in the real world, but not me.
Then one day my HP took the film off of my eyes & I finally saw the world
everyone had been describing & telling me THEY lived in. I know
desperation got me abstinent...but it does seem as if there was some
missing ingredient that I just can't put my finger on.
There is nothing today worth giving up my abstinence for. I do say that
is for today.
I don't have "cravings" like I used to. I occasionally want "to eat"
large quantities....which is a different type of craving. I believe that
is an emotional craving. But the physical "I'm gonna die if I don't have
XYZ simply doesn't happen anymore. I believe that is because eating
certain substances actually have a biochemical reaction in my body that
causes the cravings. Since I don't eat those substances anymore I don't
have cravings for certain foods. I handle the craving for "more food" by
distracting myself & working the program. I don't eat....no matter what.
I just don't have it in me to face a "fight" everyday. So instead I
prepare myself by arming myself against the disease. I do this by having
a sponsor, going to lots of meetings, reading a lot of recovery
literature, writing, doing service, working the steps, reaching out to
other coe's. They say the best offense is a good defense. I hope to have
so much defense I scare the crap out of this disease! Let it go pick on
someone else it has a better chance against. I'm armed to the teeth!
Thanks for letting me share,
Amy
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This is part of an essay in response to the Big Book:
This passage speaks volumes to me....it is hard to know where to begin.
The elusive sensation, I have chased it so often. As my disease
progressed I rarely received the relief I was so desperate for. That
moment of bliss where all the pain & memories evaporated...and I was just,
full....complete. Towards the end of my coe days I never had the relief I
sought & yet still, desperately chased it praying that one day it would
come. It was such a sick & dysfunctional way to live.
If I had a dollar for every time I would start a "diet" or a "new way of
life" I would be Donald Trump! When the cravings for refief from life
hit....it is hard not to turn to the only thing that ever worked, even
when it no longer works & it is killing you. My mind would
scream....maybe this time!!! Once I made the decision to put the food
down & allowed myself some time to heal from the food fog I lived in,
looking at how I lived previous seemed insane. It is incomprehensible how
food could make me crazy, and yet it did.
For me that psychic change really took place in working step 2.
Developing a HP that I could trust in, believe in, & have faith. It was
the first time in a long time I had hope.
Step 3....making the decision to turn my will & life over to my HP, helped
that faith grow. Allowed me the safety I needed in the world to move on
with an abstinent life. Step 2 & 3 are where the psychic change took
place for me. First came the abstinence & the surrender. Surrendering
that I had no control over food, surrender that my life had become a mess,
surrender to a new way of life, surrender my will....all of it. Then the
psychic change.
The medical profession neither hurt nor helped. Professionals tried to
wake me up from my destructive behavior for 20+ years. If you asked me a
year ago I would have told you they hurt me....making me feel guilty about
my weight. But now I see that is a blame game. The truth is the medical
profession saved my life long enough for me to finally get my act together
& work the OA program. I owe a great deal to the medical profession &
could never repay them. Unfortunately most doctors are not trained in how
to deal with addictions nor trained in coe'ing specifically. I think it
us up to me to share my problem & the solution with the medical
profession. I am responsible for sharing my recovery....one doctor at a
time, one coe at a time. If the doctors had information, then they would
be able to act on it. You can't hold the medical professionals
responsible to give information they don't have. Also, I need to take
responsibility for me....the 12 steps have taught me that. No, I have
nothing to do with giving myself this disease...but I & only I am
responsible for treating it. Any harm done to me by the disease of
addiction/food/coe...was done to me by myself & my actions & inactions.
This is a position of power. I can do something about MY behavior, MY
thoughts, MY actions.
I KNOW the promise of recovery is real. I am living it right now. 7
months abstinence may not seem like a lot to some. But I have been shown
a world I never knew existed. I feel like Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz.
Living in my addiction was like living in a black & white Kansas. But
living in abstinence....the world is in Technicolor!! I feel like
Pinocchio...I'm a real live human!!!! Who knew!
I get very adamant & excited when I talk about abstinence. It is only
because I know how wonderful life is now in comparison to my old life. I
want for every coe in the world to have what I have now. I feel very
connected to my brethren in food addiction. NO ONE can understand me like
another coe & I feel the pain of those who are stuggling. I want to help
them....how can I not? When I know how bad they feel now, & how good they
CAN feel. It is as if we share a body. It is hard because I cannot
magically make anyone abstinent, just like no one could do it for me. I
can only live the abstinence & share it where I can & hope & pray one day
we will all be saved from the hell of living in the addiction.
Blessings,
Amy

This was in regards to a ? asking how do you help others get abstinent when you see they are letting the disease kill themselves?

It is hard to say this but honestly, I cannot do anything to help anyone recover or make them make the decision to recover. The only thing I can do is share my ESH & to continue to be abstinent myself. Be the example to them! Other than that it is between them & their HP. Facts are that some will die of the disease before they will ever decide to recover. These examples are also needed in program, to remind us why we need to stay abstinent & to help others get abstinent. I am powerless over food, people, places & things & have no control over somebody else's recovery. I need to stay at the point of power, which is in MY recovery.
Hope that helps,
Love,
Amy

I didn't choose to have this disease....but I did choose to live in the problem and not the solution. My choices have real life consequences!

Amy

This is a share/post of mine online...hope you find it helpful.

Hi everyone, Amy, coe & fa, in recovery & abstinent ODAT.
I tried EVERYTHING except WLS (I didn't do that because I knew someone
that died from complications after the surgery + I knew too many that had
it & gained all their weight back & more after losing it). Still, miracle
I didn't try that too! I've done All the diets, including the major pay
as you go ones, boxed & packages foods, nutritionists, dietitians,
doctors, pills (legal & illegal), starvation, laxatives, vomiting....blah
blah blah.....you get the picture.
None of that worked for me. I also tried OA once before....stayed 31/2
years, didn't get it either. I loved knowing other people who were like
me with food, but in truth I never wanted recovery. I wanted to be thin.
There is a HUGE difference from wanting to be thin, and wanting to be
healthy emotionally, physically, mentally, & spiritually. They are worlds
apart.
The second time I came into OA "I got it". I needed to know that I had
tried everything & failed. Some things I needed to try twice (yeah, I'm
hard headed). I got it this time because I was desperate & wanted to be
healthy. My focus was on the right thing, abstinence & recovery...not
thinness. Being a normal weight is a byproduct of the recovery, it
shouldn't be the goal. In my opinion abstinence should be the goal
because recovery depends on & follows the abstinence. How can one recover
mentally, emotionally & spiritually after all if they're in a food fog? I
know I couldn't. Once I got abstinent I was able to think clearly & put
the work into recovery.
I found abstinence was a decision I needed to make. It's not a feeling
that one day came to me out of the blue. Hanging around OA & doing step
work while in a food fog never helped me to "get it". 31/2 years of doing
that clearly didn't work. I merely needed to decide to be abstinent.
Once I made the decision to be abstinent I did what it took to stay that
way. How did I know what to do? I did what those who recovered told me
to do. I got a sponsor. I gave my food to her daily as an exercise in
honesty & surrender. I did the step work she gave to me. I read the
literature. I began more & more to reach out. I attended a LOT of
meetings, on line & f2f. I do service. I write. Really none of this was
new information to me....I had heard it all before. But there is a big
difference between having knowledge & utilizing it. This time I used it
because I had to follow through with my decision, my decision to be
abstinent. It was a simple decision, but not neccessarily easy to follow
through with, especially at the beginning.
Sometimes I needed (and still do) need to go to on line meetings all day
long. I belong to several loops & read emails & write them. Sometimes I
need to play a computer game just to keep my hands busy so I don't eat.
Sometimes I have to actually sit on my hands...but I do it because I know
I DON'T EAT NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! For me that resolve got stronger
& stronger the longer I stayed abstinent as long as I did not allow myself
to get sidetracked.
Last month my disease was trying to get me. It convinced me I needed to
go back to school...now! Then that I needed to get a second job to pay
off my debts....now! Then get involved in a relationship.....NOW! I knew
better....I know you don't make any major life changes until you've had a
year's worth of abstinence under your belt & you've worked all the steps.
Big duh!!!!!!!!! But my disease is insidious, cunning, baffling,
powerful....patient. I looked into going back to school, started a job
hunt, was going to sign up for an on line dating service. Then I
remembered...oh yeah....abstinence is your FIRST priority. Without it,
you have nothing, you will lose everything. So I stopped myself from
going back to school for now. I will survive financially for a little
while longer without another job. Dating can definitely wait. I need my
recovery. So instead I signed up for more service jobs on line, f2f, and
took on some sponsees, joined more loops. That took care of some extra
time & kept my focus where it needs to be....Abstinence/recovery, ODAT.
I have found this Tradition study invaluable. It reminds me why the OA
meetings I used to attend are no longer around and while I need to be part
of the solution of recovery and a message bringer to meetings & not a
"mess" dumper.
Thanks to everyone for posting,
Love & blessings,
Amy

This is one of my writings from my online recovery loops. I need to do these, to remind myself what I used to be like, what I am like now, and how I got this way.
My name is Amy, & I am a compulsive overeater and a food addict,
gratefully in recovery today.
I have been blessed with 61/2 months of back to back abstinence and a
108lb weight loss since coming into OA. This has been a blessing. All of
us have probably heard the term "gutter drunk". I am a gutter coe. I
really thought there was no help for the likes of me. This is my second
time around in OA. My first time around I didn't get it. I didn't
understand the program and I needed to leave, to experiment, to get drunk
on food a whole lot more, to have more negative life outcomes, before I
was willing to work this program.
That's what I wanted to share on today. What I was like, what happened,
what I am like today.
I don't want to dwell to much on what I used to be like. My story is
extreme compared to most. I went bankrupt because of this disease. I
made it a habit to take cash advances of at least $50 a day on my credit
cards to pay for my habit. That didn't include the money I charged for
food at restaurants. I remember having to go to gas stations to buy $50
worth of binge foods because it was only my gas card that had any limit
like. Do you know how degrading it is to spend $50 at a gas station on
your gas credit card & not get any gas?
I almost died from this disease. My binge eating led to pancreatitis. I
laid in a hospital bed for a month & had 3 surgeries to save my life. I
was told I could die if I ever binged again. Did that stop me! Not on
your life.
My fiance left me because he didn't want to marry a fat girl. I used to
kid myself into thinking he was a bad guy. Looking back I don't blame
him. Who would want to marry the mess I was?
That is a small taste of what I used to be like. I can sum it up in a few
adjectives; dirty, smelly, unkepmt, morbidly obese, crazy,
obsessed....get the picture?
What happened? I came to OA, desperate to recover, and willing to go to
any lengths....that's what happened. I got a sponsor, I work the steps, I
go to meetings, I give service, I read literature, I write, I make friends
ni program....I do what it takes. That's what happened.
Yesterday I shared on my weight loss at a meeting online. This wasn't to
brag, this was to show newcomers that yes, this program really does work.
Immediately I recieved two private messages asking me, "what diet are you
on?", "what is your food plan". I explained simply that I don't eat my
binge foods and directed them to my blog so they could get more
information. I was put off by the question but didn't understand why. Now
I realize that was the wrong way to respond.
The right way to respond was...."that's the wrong question!" No food plan
or "diet" ever kept me from compulsively eating. Don't ask me what "diet"
I'm on.....I'm not. Don't ask me about my food plan, it won't work for
you. Ask me, "what do you do to stay abstinent?".
I spend a lot of time on my recovery. Let me share with you what I did
yesterday to stay abstinent.
1) I followed my food plan.
2) I went to 2 online meetings and led one.
3) I spent about 2 hours working on my computer so I could lead online
meetings.
4) I exercised per my Dr.'s orders because it supports my recovery.
5) I talked with someone from program on the phone.
6) I emailed on my home loop.
7) I read about 100 emails from the loops I belong too. I answered
questions & responded to essays.
8) I called and talked to my sponsor.
9) I read program literature.
10) I prayed and meditated.
11) I talked to several OA's online & got phone numbers.
Notice how much time I spent on recovery yesterday?? Several hours. Is
that a normal day for me....no. Is that a normal weekend for me....yes!!
I spend several hours a weekend on my recovery. Some may say, "I'm not
going to do that, I have a life". So do I! I have a life thanks to the
program. I meantioned food once. I mentioned exercise once. How many
times did I mention a form of service? How many hours did I spend
planning my food...none. My food choices for the day took a minute maybe.
Food just wasn't a priority yesterday. I ate to live. I didn't have to
worry about what I ate because I have a plan to take care of me. It is
second nature now. In fact, I was really to busy living yesterday to be
concerned with food. Food kept my body going yesterday....it was nothing
more to me than that. That was Sunday.
Saturday was a bad day for me. It was the first time in 61/2 months that
food really called me. No paticular food (which is a huge difference),
but volumes of food. My response to that was not to give in & have a
taste. I know a taste of food will at the least start the obsessive food
thoughts and at the worst will lead to an all out binge that could end
with me being put 6 ft in the ground. No thank you, I like being sane.
My response was to go to meetings, email recovery friends, make phone
calls, do service work, meditate, pray. That is how you recover, that is
how you lose weight, that is how you work a program.
I have a f2f meeting tonight. I know the chances are I will be the only
abstinent person there. I also know I will probably be the only one not
mentioning food or my new "diet" plan at the meeting. I know this from
experience....it's OK. This is where the people at this meeting are at.
I bless them & save me. I feel a great responsibility to show up to the
meeting, stay abstinent, and to talk program and not diets. I know the
people who ask me what diet I am on don't get the program yet. That is
OK, I was there once too. I hope and pray they stick around long enough
to "get it" in these rooms. I hope and pray they don't do what I did &
leave the rooms and have to go through the torment of this disease alone.
They may have too, it may be their path. It is a painful one...but for
some of us very neccessary. In any case, I take no responsibilty for
their path, I can only take responsibility for my own. But I know there
are so many people struggling and in deep pain right now, that don't know
what to do. I used to be like you, and if I make the mistake of picking
up the food again to soothe my nerves, alter my mental reality, I will be
right there with you in a heartbeat. I don't want to go there, I'll do
anything it takes not to go there. I will literally go to any lengths.
If I have to attend a meeting everyday for the rest of my life, I am more
than willing. If I have to pick up my phone which weighs 1 ton, I'll do
it. If I need to do service, I'll do it gladly. I don't ever want to
trade this life for the one I used to have. To put it midly, the last
life sucked. I was always miserable, always in pain (physically &
mentally), I was out of touch with my HP, I was always obsessing about
food (what I'm going to eat next, what I can't eat, how much I want this
or that). I don't want that life anymore. I like the life where I can see
my talents blossom. Have time to be with people instead of food & food
thoughts. Be of useful service to myself & my fellows. Be attractive.
Be healthy. Be alive!! This is the life I want. Go to any length??
Absolutely, This is a way to live!!!! Diet's, they are a way to die,
slowly & miserably. I'm either on the path to recovery or on the highway
to hell. I don't know for sure which path I will be on tomorrow. But I
know the path I am on right now, I like the view.
This is what I'm like now. I couldn't sleep...woke up way early. In the
old days I would eat myself into a stupor and not be able to function
properly all day. Today I get up out of bed, get online & do some
recovery work. I have to go now & get my dr. prescribed exercise in. Then
I'll eat an abstinent breakfast & go to work. I will probably forget
about food until I get a hunger pang which reminds me it's time to eat. I
won't get home until late tonight because I have a f2f meeting. I hope I
have time to get on my email loops tonight. This is how I live an
abstinent life.
Blessings to you in recovery,
Amy